“It’s surreal that a couple of DMs convinced me to end my own life, but that’s what happened.”
Constance Wu has returned to social media for the first time in three years to address the backlash from her controversial Fresh from the boat tweets and revealed how difficult that time was for her.
If you missed it Crazy rich Asians the actress shared a series of posts in 2019, in which she expressed her dissatisfaction with the renewal of the hit ABC sitcom, in which she played the main character Jessica Huang.
The show, which had been renewed for its sixth and final season, centered on a Taiwanese family who had immigrated to the United States. It was super popular with viewers, and even got an impressive average rating of 94% on Rotten Tomatoes.
However, Constance was clearly frustrated by the news of its renewal for season 6, which triggered a setback when she tweeted: “So sorry right now that I’m literally crying. Oh. Fuck,” and, “To hell.”
When a fan congratulated Constance on the renewal of her show and remarked that it was “great news“replied the actor,” No, it is not, “before continuing to comment on” dislike “under the official Fresh from the boats Instagram post about it.
After Constance’s tweets attracted a lot of negative attention on the net, she defended her words by suggesting that fans “made a lot of assumptions” about what she said.
“It’s not a joke, it was just the way I used to talk. I say fucking a lot. I love the word. You make a lot of assumptions about what I said. And no, that’s not what it’s about. “That’s not what this is about. Stop assuming,” she wrote.
She later appeared to go back to her remarks when she admitted they had been “poorly timed” with the news of the show’s renewal.
“Today’s tweets were on the heels of a hard day and were poorly timed with the news of the show. Plz know I’m so grateful for FOTB renewal. I love the cast and crew. I’m proud to be a part of it. To all the fans support, thank you guys and to everyone who supports my random use of the word fuck thank you too, ”she tweeted.
The following day, Constance issued a formal statement apologizing for her angry comments, explaining that she was “temporarily upset” because Fresh from the boat renewal meant she “had to give up another project” that she was passionate about.
“I love FOTB,” she wrote. “I was temporarily upset yesterday does not bc I hate the show, but e.g. the renewal meant I had to give up another project that I was really passionate about. So my horrible answers on social media were more about the second project and not about FOTB. ”
And the actress would continue to erase all traces of her social media activity before remaining silent online for the next three years.
But now Constance has returned to social media with a raw announcement released on June 14, in which she admitted that she was “afraid” of re-emerging on the online platforms.
“I haven’t been on social media in almost 3 years,” she began. “Tbh, I’m a little scared, but I dive my toe back to say I’m here and while I was away I wrote a book called To make a scene“, she wrote, referring to her book of personal memoirs-in-essays, due out in October.
Continues to remember the “serious” backlash and “internet shaming” she had encountered after her Fresh from the boat comments, Constance revealed that she had attempted suicide as a result of the outrage.
“This next part is hard to talk about … but I was scared to get back on social media because I almost lost my life from it,” she wrote. “Three years ago, when I was making careless tweets about the renewal of my TV show, it triggered outrage and internet embarrassment that became quite serious.”
“I was horrified by what I had said, and when a couple of DMs from another Asian actress told me I had become a nuisance to Asian American society, I began to feel that I did not even deserve to “live longer. That I was a disgrace to AsAms and they would be better off without me,” the actor revealed.
“Looking back, it’s surreal that a couple of DMs convinced me to end my own life, but that’s what happened. Fortunately, a friend found me and hurried me to the emergency room, ”she added.
Constance noted that it ultimately caused her to “reevaluate much” in her life, which encouraged her to work on promoting and destigmatizing conversations about mental health in Asian American society.
“For the next few years, I put my career aside to focus on my mental health,” she wrote. “AsAms is not talking enough about mental health. Although we are quick to celebrate representation victory, there is a lot of avoidance around the more unpleasant problems in our society.”
“Even my tweets became a topic so sensitive that most of my AsAm colleagues decided it to was the time to avoid me or freeze me out, ”she continued. “I will admit it hurt a lot, but it also made me realize how important it is to reach out and care for people who are going through a hard time.”
Constance said she wrote To make a scene to “help people talk about the unpleasant things” and “open paths to healing.”
“If we want to see each other, really seen … we have to let all of ourselves being seen, including the parts we are afraid of or ashamed of – parts that, no matter how imperfect, require care and attention, “she wrote.” And we must stop beating each other (and ourselves ) when we do. So while my book is not always the most flattering depiction, it is as honest as I know how to be. For the truth is that I am not clear or graceful or perfect. I’m emotional. I make mistakes … many of them!
Constance ended her statement by noting that she feels “okay enough” to return to social media after her years-long break and “a lot of therapy.”
“After a short break from Hollywood and one lot of therapy, I feel OK enough to venture back here (at least for a little bit), ”she wrote. “And even though I’m scared, I’ve decided that I owe it to myself 3 years ago to be brave and share my story so it might help someone with theirs.”
“If you or someone you know is considering suicide, please contact the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255), write” STRENGTH “to the Crisis Text Line at 741-741,” the actor said with a link to its website. (This now redirects users to 988 Suicide & Crisis Lifeline – 988 has been designated as the new three-digit dialing code that will route calls in the United States to the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline.)
And in the hours since her statement was shared, Constance has been inundated with words of support from followers and co-stars online.